Photo Credit: Phil Wayes
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Sunday, April 4, 2010

Flashbacks: Spring Break Oh Four

***This is an entry from my old blog, dated late March/early April 2004 (or somewhere thereabouts). I was a senior at the LVPA high school (about to graduate) and I had just signed my first contract with PADV. Enjoy this little slice of 2004-life and have a wonderful Easter!***

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Hey folks! What a kickass weekend. Lots to recap; brace yourself:

Friday the LVPA Performance Group brought the house down at the Moravian College Dance Concert. Talk about being the Real Deal. One of my dance teachers from outside school came to see it (Kathy M), as well as Joe Bigley (who I haven't seen in almost 2 years). All I can say is that our Tarantella kicked serious ass and we got a screaming ovation when it was over.

Saturday I had dance rehearsal in the morning and then ran around like crazy before picking up Ty for our pre-show warmup. C. Ballis was at the show that night-- I worked with her last year at Freemotion before she graduated form Moravian. I haven't seen her in almost a year, so it was really cool to run into her again. Donna B was also at the show...I can't believe she's graduating this year!

Sunday I had my first rehearsal with PADV....I signed the contract this morning so it's official now. I found out that my dance teacher Gina (who dances with PADV) used to dance with Miss L (our senior dance composition teacher] at Radford. The world gets smaller every day! Afterwards I went to Solehi to see Boys From Syracuse, but by then I was tired and speaking in gibberish. While I was there I ran into Kelcie, Julie (Hi Julie!), Senora Howard [and a couple kids whose names I don't know but who go to LVPA. After the show I got film developed, so keep your eyes peeled for pics.

I'm looking at PADVs repertoire list and wow. I mean, WOW. Some of their stuff looks amazing. And by amazing, I mean I want to dance some of this s**t right now.

I hope your weekend was a great as mine was.

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That's all for now, folks. Have a wonderful Easter.
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Friday, January 29, 2010

Let's Watch Movies: Winter

In December, I went back to Pennsylvania and took a master class with the other dancers-- current and former-- of PA Dance Vision. We danced to Tori Amos' "Winter." Here is a clip of us dancing to it. Enjoy!

PA Dance: I miss you.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Homecoming.

Photos by Mike Abate.

I'm home! I've been here for two days, reconnecting with my roots, my family, my friends, my old life. It's been an amazing whirlwind, these last 48 hours alone-- I have not been here in an entire year, and yet as soon as I stepped off the plane it was like I had never left.




Last night was my "homecoming" as a dancer-- I drove up to the Pocono Mountains to dance with PADV for the first time since we did Mountain Dance two years ago. It was a special Alumni-Master Class for both current and former PADV dancers. And it was amazing.


At the beginning of the class, each of us dancers introduced ourselves and stated how we had found/joined PA Dance and why we stayed/why we "keep coming back." I mentioned that I had been in the company five years ago (really? Five years already?) and that I now live in Texas, but "I keep coming back because I love it here. This is my home, and the studio is like my other family."
Quick aside/backstory: During my time at PA Dance, we had a second, smaller studio in the backwoods of Cresco, PA, way up in the mountains. I would work there, and since I was usually in the office myself during the day, I would listen to music-- in particular, a lot of Tori Amos.
Back to last night, Maria told us we would be learning choreography to a Tori Amos song. Then she proceeds to turn on "Winter," which was my favorite song about two years ago, the one I always listened to when I was alone at the Cresco studio, the song that reminds me of the place and that time more than anything.
I got goosebumps.
And then I danced. I danced Maria's choreography for the first time in years, alongside her dancers-- some I danced with many times in the past, some I had never met. It was beautiful, it was fun, and it was perfect.
Afterward, G and I sat down with Maria and Mike and had a good, long visit. We talked about where we've been, where we've gone, what we've done over the last two years. G is married, dancing in DC and going to grad school. Mike and Maria are now married and doing well, finding love and peace in everything. We got caught up and shared wonderful conversations and memories. It was like Christmas, celebrated with my dance family.
Tomorrow, I celebrate with my family, in our usual tradition-- go to the Candle Light Church service as a family, gather at our house to exhange gifts and eat and laugh and bond. Tonight I helped my mother decorate the tree (I seem to have an awful lot of ballerina ornaments), tomorrow I get to see the rest of my family for the first time in a year. It will be the most perfect Christmas.


I am so happy to be home.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Burning Girl

(Still no internet. Am posting from Mr. Sozeberg's computer; thanks, Keyser! I wrote this post earlier today on my home computer).

It's my first full day here in my new condo, and I have the day off. With no internet to use as my time-suck, the day has been spent grocery shopping, unpacking, and re-acquainting myself with my DVD collection.

Among the [many] DVDs I watched today, one of them was PADV's 2004 fall concert-- my second concert with the company. The final piece was Returning (the company's signature work), and as I watched it, two things stuck in my mind:
1. Holy damn, I looked totally different five years ago.
2. I danced with so much joy.
The second one kind of bugged me. "I danced with so much joy." I wondered, Do I still dance with that amount of happiness now? Probably not. Why? I mean, that was five years ago, and I made my living from dance; the same can be said today. So what's the difference between then and now?
I thought about it for a while, and the best answer that I can come up with is that... back then, it was a whole new world for me. It was my first apprenticeship, I had been with the company for seven months, I loved everything about it-- the people, the dances, the studio, everything. The senior-year struggle of Trying To Get Into A Company was over, I loved my new life, it was time to just kick back and enjoy it.

Note from the future: It doesn't last. About nine months to a year after you sign your first contract, a little voice creeps into your head, taps your skull, and whispers "Wake up, dollface. The honeymoon's over." And then all of a sudden you're worrying about your career, about your place in your career, if you're moving up fast enough, if you're doing enough, if you're getting enough stage time and how much you've added to your resume. And then you're going on endless auditions and interviews and guesting all over the place and dancing in multiple companies at once. Eventually, the burnout hits you.

It didn't hit me until last season, but it hit me hard. HARD. To the point where putting on a leotard and tights was less desirable than flossing my teeth with barbed wire. I had a wonderful experience working on Alice in Wonderland, but that was pretty much the extent of my joy. For the most part, the career that I busted my ass to even ATTAIN was causing me nothing but stress and angst.

So: I took the summer off. I enjoyed time with my best friend, I read a lot, I watched comedy and laughed my obnoxious shrieky-sounding laugh. I did some soul-searching and remembered why I loved to dance in the first place; why I chose to make this my career. I went back to ballet classes and reconnected with my dance buddies. And then I asked our company director if she wanted me to dance with her this season and talked about class schedules with the studio director. A week ago, I returned to dancing as a much happier dancer.

Usually, my dance-oriented goals involve performing a lot, getting roles, teaching well, and choreographing good dances. After watching that footage today, my new goal is to dance with the same amount of overflowing joy as I did on that DVD.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Love, Dance, Family, Unity

(Photo Credits: Phil Wayes)

I met them on March 21st, 2004. I was auditioning for her company, the PA Dance Vision Repertory Ensemble. I'd just finished the let's-see-how-you-dance-with-the-full-company part of the audition; and I was sitting out in the lobby, nervously awaiting my interview/solo audition when he came sat down next to me. I'm Mike, he said, I'm her boyfriend, and I do lighting design/stage managing for the company.
I went in for my interview, danced the Lilac Fairy variation in dead pointe shoes, did a section of a modern dance that I was doing at school, somehow survived an improv and nervously prattled my way through an interview with Maria Triano, Founding Artistic Director. I was eighteen years old, with hair in two little Princess-Lea buns and my favorite purple Grishko sweater over my lucky black leotard. We do a lot of modern and jazz, she told me many times. I was clearly a bunhead, maybe not the best fit for their repertoire.

She took me anyway.

Two weeks after graduating high school, I danced my first performance with them. The next morning I left for New York City, and was happy to find well-wishing e-mails from both Maria and Mike when I finally checked my e-mail. Mike worked in the city and visited me after school one day; we walked all over New York City and got to know each other. He even gave me a ride back to PA when I came home for a weekend.

Shortly after returning from New York, I loaded up my Saturn and moved into my First Place, 3.5 miles from the studio (Maria had gone with me when I went to check out the place). PADV had just acquired a second studio space in Cresco, PA; I helped with the renovation efforts and had a positively lovely time getting to know Mike, Maria, and a few other dancers who later became good friends of mine. I taught creative movement, helped out with rehearsals for the second company, worked the desk at their dance studio, and learned roles left and right. My second show with them, I got to dance not one but two featured parts and was elated (not to mention honored beyond belief). And while I was having a hard time adjusting to my new/adult/ living-on-my-own-in-a-new-town/ holy-crap-I-actually-have-a career life, Mike and Maria stood behind me. They listened to me whine so many times that they deserve some kind of Nobel Prize. They dealt with my angst, gave me hugs, and let me hang around their house and eat peanut butter sandwiches on their couch while I did my office work. They were amazing, and I'm thankful for every second.

I was with them for about two seasons before I went back to New York.

Maria and I didn't talk much for a while, but we started e-mailing again after a few months . Since we were no longer professionally bound, we began to develop a strong friendship-- I talked to her on MSN every day when I first moved to Houston; she tolerated to an earful of Oh God, I hate this place, get me OUT; she told me it was okay to leave Houston if I wanted to.

Clearly, I didn't leave Houston after all... but every time I'm in Pennsylvania, I make a point to visit the Triano/Abate family (last Christmas, they even collected me from hell JFK Airport and brought me to my mom. How awesome is that?). They're my second family, and have been for years.

One month after I left PA, on Maria's birthday. Mike proposed. She said yes.

Today, they are getting married.

Am I sad I can't be there? Yeah, um, LIKE YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE. But as you well know: "That's showbiz." (Ironically, I missed my best friend T's wedding because I was in a show at the time...and T is Maria's cousin)

Mike and Maria: Congratulations on your wedding, I wish you nothing but the best blessings in life. I love you guys.

Edited to add (8pm)-- I saw the pictures that have popped up on Facebook already, and I'm now crying like a girl over here:(Photo credit: Jennifer Smith, PA Dance Vision. Thanks, Miss Jen!)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Flashbacks: The Beginnings of a Dance Career

Five years ago today I came home from school to find out I'd landed my first apprenticeship with a dance company-- PA Dance Vision Repertory Ensemble.

In honor of my half-decade of dancing livelihood-- and another big event that's about to happen over at PADV, which you'll hear about soon-- I decided to share with you some flashbacks from the start of season, around the time I moved to East Stroudsburg to be a fully-committed PA Dancer.

(These are reprinted from my personal journal and from my old website)

"This week I've been getting up earlier and earlier each day. It's not even because I'm in school, either-- the new studio space is opening in less than two days, and we are getting ready. We are also exhausted to the point of delirium. Today I could have come to work drunk and it wouldn't have mattered, provided I were the drinking type. We spent lunch cursing and laughing hysterically. The climax of the craziness was when Mike locked himself in the bathroom. He had to do the Ever After thing by taking the hinges off and opening the door backwards...it was quite a feat. He will go down in history as The Man Who Opened A Door..... It's my last week of summer and my last week before I move out and Start My new Life. Whoa. I'm trying to make the most of my last week at home, but I have so much to do. Like, for instance, packing. Maybe I should try and get a jump on that."

[this was my first public blog post after moving to the mountains] "The last three and a half weeks have been quite an experience. Lots of thinking, musing; losing reality then finding it again; losing myself then finding me again. The end of the first week/beginning of my second week was the roughest, but I got through with the help of some very special people. I've made some friends; some out of previous acquaintances and some people that I've just met. The Pocono Mountains are beautiful right now; the trees are exploding in variations of red and gold. I tell you, flying up 447 in the mornings on my way to the studio with that surrounding you...it makes my morning."

"My Rented Room is essentially a warehouse for dance shoes and a place where I shower and catch a few hours of sleep here or there. Which is nice, considering the rent is dirt-cheap for some damn nice digs. Half the time I don't even sleep here; in the last week I've stayed overnight in Bethlehem twice, in Analomink once, and most recently at J. West's-- which involved watching A Time For Dancing and making CD's for our Monday classes. It was fun."

"Know what's lovely? When the interior of your car is soaked with cappuccino. You sit your coffee cup on top of your car because you've done that plen-ty of times before without incident, but you are in dancing in Tobyhanna today and the killer wind kicks up, sets your cup flying, and sends French vanilla onto your hair, your coat, your dance bag, and the backseat of your car. Fantastic."

"The fall concert is this weekend. We have a new piece and a re-staging of an old piece by an outside choreographer-- End of the Beginning. It's so beautiful. The new one is Salted Spirits by the one-and-only Gabe C. It's about drugs and suicide (the music the Requiem for a Dream soundtrack. Savvy?)...but oh, SO much fun. And dammit, I'm a sucker for things like Returning andTransition. I don't care if they've been danced to death, i still love them. Transition kind of relates to the way I've been feeling lately, Returning is......Returning. Can't even describe it."

"Opening night....whoa. It was quite a day. Maria straightened my hair. I glued my eye closed (oops). We had to flip-flop the order of the show two minutes before curtain [long story]. With that said, we jumped right into Transition and before I knew it the performance was over. Well... not exactly. During Salted Spirits my hair tie flew out (I was only aware of this because suddenly I had more hair than I did at the opening of the piece) and the smoke machine set off the central smoke alarm. Oops! Once the alarm shut off I was trying to wipe off the eye makeup from Spirits, causing the entire left side of my face to be boogered up and therefore re-makeuped before I went on for End of the Beginning. I don't even remember Words to Live By, but then it was Returning and that was the end. It was insane. It was fun. It was beautiful. And for a span of about two hours, my life made sense."

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

100 Posts, 100 Totally Random facts about Butterfly

1. I started dancing when I was four years old in a class at the Easton, Pennsylvania YMCA called “Tiny Dancers.”

2. By the way, about fifteen years after my mother’s Saturday- morning aerobics-class-that-somehow- launched-my-life-of-dance, Mama Butterfly found her old aerobics leotards and gave them to me. They fit, but I just couldn’t comprehend (let alone tolerate) the incredibly high-cut legs. If I wanted to dance with my hipbones and half of my bedonkadonk hanging out for all the world to see, I’d dance in my underwear.

3. I kept those leos, though. We all need a stack of “emergency leotards” for those weeks when laundry just doesn’t happen.

4. In case you couldn’t tell, I was never a fan of 1980’s fashion.

5. I was a fan of 1980's comedy, though. In my mind, it makes up for the big hair and spandex.

6. My father passed away shortly after I turned four. My mother raised me, with some extra help from her mom and her sisters.

7. I will always give Mama Butterfly major props, credit, and respect for how she raised me. Being a single parent is hard enough if you have a nice, normal, vanilla kid—she had an “artistically- minded creative child” (translation: “Crazy Artist-Type In- The- Making”). She had a hard job but she did it well.

8. I grew up in East Jesus Nowhere, Pennsylvania and will always be a [Lehigh] Valley Girl at heart.

9. Everyone thinks that since I'm a Yankee, I would be appalled at the "Texas Rednecks" here in the south. Puh-leez. I'm from a town that values football, beer, and fire-hall weddings.

10. The first summer I spent in New York City (Ailey School Summer Intensive); I lived one block from a four-story Barnes & Noble. That’s right, kids: Four floors of bookstore, and a top floor that had a Starbucks overlooking the Upper West Side. Now you see why The Books-A-Million at Katy Mills doesn’t do it for me. You also know where my personal idea of Heaven is.

11. When I was in public high school, I was part of a group I called “The Posse” that consisted of myself and four other girls: Jen, Melissa, Liz, and Kristen. And I want you four Posse girls to know that I still miss you a fucking bunch.

12.In high school, I LOVED writing short stories, poetry, and prose.

13. I even went through a Tanka phase when I was about seventeen. When was the last time you met a seventeen-year-old with a Tanka-writing hobby?

14. Oh Dear God, what a nerd I am.

15. I may be a nerd, but it's a fact I accepted and embraced long ago. Long live geek pride!

16. This list of “100 Random Facts About Me” is pretty much turning into “100 Reasons I’m a Total Weirdo.” I’m okay with that.

17. I went to a public high school for three years, and you know what? I loved it. I expected to graduate from there.

18. But I didn’t. And here’s why:A performing arts high school (the only in our area) was announced to open for my senior year. After spending 11 years in the public school system, I did the only logical thing: I transferred out and went to the Lehigh Valley Charter High School for the Performing Arts for my senior year.

19. My senior year at LVPA was an amazing experience, and I don’t care what anyone else from my graduating class has to say-- I had a damn good time there and I’m proud to call LVPA my alma mater.

20. At LVPA, I could mainly be found in the company of Garrett, Carly, and Dara, or Donna, or Drew and Colin. In retrospect, we had us a LOT of good times ( “This one time, we went to Dempsey’s, and….” Nothing further, your honor).

21. The Great American Suburban Teenager Pastime: Dinering

22. Though my friend G and I frequented the Coopersburg Diner, I enjoyed going to the Bethlehem Diner alone so I could drink black coffee and write.

23.Three months before graduation, in March of my senior year, I auditioned for and got an apprenticeship to my first company. I was in my bedroom at my home in Bethlehem, PA when I got the news, and Garrett was with me. It was a Thursday.

24. I remember little details like that, but don’t ask me where I put the car keys that were in my hand five minutes ago.

25. My first real dance company (apprenticeship) was the PA Dance Vision Repertory Ensemble in East Stroudsburg, Pennsylvania; and that company will forever hold a special place in my heart.

26. I spent the summer after my senior year in New York City at the Paul Taylor East Coast Intensive.

27. I remember that summer for four reasons: 1) I left for the intensive mere hours after my first performance with my first professional dance company; 2) I lived by myself in Greenwich Village and a did a helluva lot of soul-searching; and 3) I fell head over heels in love with Taylor’s choreography and style of movement and decided it was requisite to my existence.4) During those 4 weeks I was more creatively proflic than I’d ever been. I never did think it was a coincidence, either.

28. My first place “on my own” was a rented room in a gorgeous house in East Stroudsburg—Minisink Hills on US-209, if you want to be specific about it. I moved there on September 10th, 2004 to be closer to the company.

29. In April of 2005 I moved in with my bosses’ cousin (who was also my at-the-time boyfriend’s sister), T, in Mount Pocono. To this day T is one of my best friends.

30. There’s a part of me that –still- misses living in the Poconos. Sometimes.

31. I don’t miss the lack of opportunities for artists to work, make a living, and be artistically fulfilled, however; that’s the lone reason that I live here instead of there. That, and I despise cold weather.

32. I spent an entire summer commuting between Mount Pocono, New York City, and Center Valley (which is near Quakertown, a Philly suburb). IT SUCKED.

33. The summer of 2006 was my last summer in Pennsylvania before I moved, and I still say it was one of the best summers of my life.

34. During my two years into the Poconos, I learned to drive on those skinny, twisty, curvy backroads like a pro-- and had a GREAT time doing so-- very fast, I might add-- when I had my Toyota Celica.

35. The weekend before I moved to Texas I spent with friends and family in the Pocono Mountains AND in the Lehigh Valley AND in New York City. I danced, I ate, I drank, I wrote, I lived like a Roman, I had the time of my life.

36. “You’re from Pennsylvania, huh? What brings you to Houston?” is a question I hate answering because, like all things related to M.Butterfly, the answer is lengthy and complicated. so after two years of begrudgingly telling the big lengthy story over and over again I now answer that question with one word: “Dance.”

37. I moved to Houston on August 1st, 2006 on a puddle-jumper plane with two suitcases and a hangover.

38. My mother cried in Newark airport when I was about to go down the jetway. We found ourselves reciting to each other the parting prayer from the church I grew up in: “May the Lord watch between me and thee, while we are absent, one from the other.” Since then, we’ve concluded every visit to each other with that same parting prayer.

39. That same morning, my mother wrote me a card and snuck it into my ABT backpack. It was my turn to cry when I dug it out and read it during the first leg of my journey to Houston. I still have that card.

40. As of today, I have been living in Houston for two years, three months and twenty- five days.

41. September 11th, 2006- I teach an audition class for a teaching job at a dance studio. My livejournal entry for that night reads “…I drove out to [Houston suburb] to teach a ballet class, and after I taught the class I felt a million times better….” (from a long walk off a short pier, September 2006)

42.I’m now in my third season at that particular studio, and three years in teaching there still has the same effect on me.

43. September 17th, 2006- I audition for a multi-media modern dance company; which I stayed with for a year and a half. To date, it’s the company I’ve danced with the longest out of any company on my resume.

44. My first real performance on the Houston dance scene was Psophonia Dance Company’s Unplugged, October 5th-7th of 2006.

45. On October 18th, 2006 I sustained a bad ankle sprain and chipped a bone in my right ankle.

46. My right anklebone will always be bigger than my left thanks to that injury.

47. December 10th, 2006- A friend and I go to see Suchu Dance perform I love mumoo ba* (not affiliated with mumoo ba) at Barnevelder.

48. I was sitting in the back row of Barnevelder theater when, somewhere in the middle of mumoo ba, it hit me: “Dude, I should start my own dance ensemble.”

49. September 17th, 2007- I audition for a contemporary ballet company thinking the best that I could hope for would be a spot in the back row of the corps de ballet. Not three months later is my first performance with them—as the lead in their holiday ballet.

50. I’ve been with that company for more than a year now, and I honestly think it’s the perfect fit for me as far as companies go. I love it there, and wouldn’t trade dancing in that group for anything.

51. In the last twenty-two-point- five years of my life, I have lived in: Easton, Bethlehem, New York City, East Stroudsburg, Mount Pocono, Wind Gap, and Houston.

52. I have also done some time in Philadelphia (PA), Hampton Beach (NH) and Davis (CA) for school, if you really want to get into specifics here.

53. August 2008—I go to my first summer intensive in FOUR YEARS (since the PT NYC Intensive in ’04): The Paul Taylor West Coast Intensive at UC Davis.

54. In New York, I stayed at a cushy residence in Greenwhich Village. In Davis, I stayed in a UC Davis Dorm.

55. It turns out that part of “Not Attending Traditional College” is “Not Being Used to Dorm Life.” It had been over six years since I’d stayed in a dorm that wasn’t on Forham’s Linclon Center-- meaning I was spoiled by houses in the country, town homes, midtown apartments, and uptown condos (and Fordham Dorms). During the first few days in the Davis dorms I felt like Nicole Richie in The Simple Life.

56. Even though I snark about the UC Davis dorms, the truth is that I had the time of my life there and would happily sell my Lexus to re-live those two weeks. No joke, folks.

57. I watched 'Arrested Development' obsessively in California.

58. The only other show I've watched obsessively is 'Weeds,' which I still believe is the best show on TV

59. Also, I think Jenji Kohan is awesome.

60. UFOs and aliens fascinate me.

61. I’m always seeking new influences for my choreography. If I see a way of movement that engages me I explore it; pillaging for something that will spark my inspiration and result in new material.

62. The main reason for that: I’m very easily bored with myself and my work.

63. At least there’s an upside to that-- I’m often told I’m a “versatile choreographer” with a “wide range of styles.”

64. I really do love choreographing dances, self-doubt aside.

Now for the more random things:

65. I was so excited to choreograph my own Le Sacre du Printemps; and then I learned that counting Stravinsky's score is as simple as building a nuclear reactor out of wristwatch parts with your teeth.

66. I probably owe Dave Barry a royalty check-- I was 13 when I started reading his books, and I've been quoting him for the last almost-ten years.

67. I love spicy mustard.

68. I like movies that are scary, but I hate excessive gore.

69. My left eye seems to be bigger than my right.

70. I'm right-handed but thanks to teaching, I tend to favor things on the left.

71. I also vote to the left (but you knew that).

72. My hair was white-blonde as a child, but now it's mouse-brown unless I highlight it.

73. For someone who talktalktalks as much as I do, I’m surprised to find that writing 100 Random Facts about myself isn’t as easy as I expected it to be.

74. As of next month, I’ll have been vegetarian for a full year.

75. I passionately loathe washing dishes and vacuuming.

76. Also, I avoid laundry until the situation becomes dire.

77. I find a tacky sort of delight in cheap wine.

78. The last dance I made for my ensemble was inspired from a scene on a TV show...

79. ....which happened to be the end of the Season- Three 'Weeds' Finale.

80. In other words, my ensemble's last piece was inspired by Mary- Louise Parker burning down a house with a tank of gasoline.

81. I think that sums up a LARGE majority of my life during the last six months. Unfortunately.

82. I'm a long-time insomniac.

83. When I was in high school, I would spend many hours of the night cleaning/organizing/re-arranging our house on the nights that I couldn't sleep. My mom spent the better part of my high- school career thinking I was on drugs.

84. I have a signature "happy bounce" that I will whip out when someone tells me something exciting.

85. I lose things. A LOT.

86. I’ve always loved animals: I currently have two cats and two rats at home.

87. My rats are awesome. I've trained them to walk out of their cage, take food from my hand, and go directly back inside their cage. My cats refuse to be trained.

88. I'm a tad eccentric.

89. I hold a Master's degree in Useless Movie Trivia from the University of Wikipedia, College of Insomniacs.

90. There’s a part of me that always wanted to be a filmmaker, and there’s a part of me that always wanted to be a writer.

90. My heritage is Half-Irish and Half-German.

91. And grew up in a town that was predominately Italian. And Catholic.

92. I was raised Methodist...but I have a Jewish Mother and the rest of our family is Catholic.

93. Figure THAT one out.

94. In all reality, Mama Butterfly isn’t actually Jewish and neither am I, but we could convince you otherwise.

95. My family is hilarious and awesome.

96. I have a really embarrassing habit of playing air piano to Stravinsky.

97. My “Personal Fashion Style” is that I’m always wearing at least one of the following: Something pink, something sparkly, something from Coach, or dance clothes.

98. I love Minkus' score to 'Don Quixote' like, a LOT.

99. I read 'White, Swan, Black Swan' by Adrienne Sharp approximately three jillion times in high school.

100. I'm really glad this list is over.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Going halfway across the country, coming full circle

This past weekend I brought my dance ensemble to perform in the Mountain Dance Concert, an annual event hosted by PA Dance Vision in East Stroudsburg, PA.

The effect, for me, was the feeling that time had flown in reverse, stopped on a dime, then sped forward. My past and my present were not only connecting but dancing a lavish pas de deux together.
There I was with my dancers, the people who I've come to know and work with over the last year and a half; introducing them to the people that I met before I'd even graduated out of ballet school. One of the girls that I danced with in PADV (who was my dance teacher, prior to that) was there with her dance company-- one of her dancers went to ballet school with me; another danced with me in Spirit Moves Dance Minsitry (both of them danced in a film project of mine as well).
The big moment happened at the end of the concert, when the PADV Repertory Ensemble did their signature piece, Returning. And I-- having just performed in two of my own works-- danced with them, for the first time in three years. At the very end I partnered with the artistic director, Maria; someone who is not only my former boss but my good friend and a great inspiration.

I was surrounded by friends of both yesterday and today; the memories of time with PADV swirling as I created new memories of my ensemble and their first performance "on tour."
It was my own personal Moment of coming full circle, three years and sixteen hundred miles later.
The Ensemble
My dancers rehearsing in PADV's studio.

The end of Returning.
PADV in Returning

p.s. there will be many more acedotes about my ensemble's trip to Pennsylvania. Be prepared.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

So much for the euphoria

Typically, most dancers who've just finished a successful major performance like to take a day or so to bask in the Yay-We-Did-It afterglow. I, however, have this track record of finishing a successful major performance and having to immediately blow town hours later. It's a cruel joke of timing, really: the curtain has barely closed when you find yourself sitting on a plane with blisters all over your feet and glitter still in your hair.

Cases in point: June 2004, my first performance with a professional company (see below); the next morning I'm driving to New York City to spend a month at the Taylor School. December 2006, I finish dancing the role of the Sugar Plum Fairy in Pennsylvania eight hours before I have to board a flight back to Houston. Two days ago, my company performs in the Mountain Dance Concert (I perform with my company and with PADV); six hours later all six of us pile into the van and traipse back to the airport.

I'm fully aware that dividing your time between multiple states means you're going to be in a hurry more often than not, but once in a while I'd like a full day to rest and reflect on the finished performances-- preferably not while waiting in line at airport security.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Returning

I have had, as predicted, had the most amazing weekend ever.
Here are some of the highlights:
- riding to the airport in a Mercedes Stretch SUV with my dancers and having our own Almost Famous moment (you know the scene where Stillwater is on the tour bus singing along to 'Tiny Dancer?' It was similar to that, except we were in a limo singing along to Aerosmith). My dancers brought an ice cream cake and sang "Happy Birthday"-- how awesome are they?
- The inside joke of the century: "WE ARE NOT KIDDING ABOUT THIS."
- Bringing all my dancers to the "new" PADV East Stroudsburg, having them meet Maria and Mike, doing a ballet class and having rehearsal.
- Taking everyone to The Crossing to go shopping; my mom joining us. Later having dinner at the Dansbury Depot with all of the above plus my two aunts/uncles and Chad.
- The mini-tech, seeing all the people I've danced before (at PADV, plus in Spirit Moves/Dancescapes/KMSD.
- The performance itself, getting a screaming ovation and a wonderful reception for 'Mad Scene,' dancing in 'Returning' for the first time in three years. Both felt like the ultimate dream come true.
- Doing headstands in Newark airport while waiting for the air train (at four in the morning).
- One of my dancers found out she was pregnant minutes after the limo dropped us off-- in my apartment. It was really special-- a blessed ending to a blessing of a weekend.

There's more. There's so much more. But I barely slept, and I'm tired, and my apartment is trashed and I don't care. I'm blowing off everything until my 6:30 rehearsal in favor of staying home, getting much needed SLEEP, and reflecting on the utter amazing-ness of the weekend.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Things that don't change

In many ways, my life is the same as it was four years ago, when I was a senior in high school. I am at the barre every morning, I dance the repertoire of a professional company, I teach ballet, and I create my own ballets.

Back then, I was in ballet class at LVPA by 8am (or at the K. Magyar School of Dance in the afternoons), I had just started as a Junior Apprentice to the PA Dance Vision Repertory Ensemble; I taught one class at a dance studio in the slate-mining town of Nazareth and was creating my own work at school, at the studio, and in Dance Dynamics (which I would later direct).


Now, even though time has passed and the places are different, the ritual is the same: I'm in ballet class every day (be it open class, company class, or jumping into a class at the studio where I teach), juggle dancing with two companies, teach a small battery of classes at a studio outside the city, and I create my own work both at that studio and in my own small chamber ballet. These days I live alone in the city where I dance; three months after finishing school I lived alone in the small mountain town where the dance company resided. I didn't sleep much back then, and I still don't; but my laundry will always be comprised of more leotards and tights than anything else. It's comforting to see that, despite all the ups and downs and changes in life, the general style of life is steadfast-- and joyful.

"Yay, I Did It."


26 June 2004. I am eighteen, only two weeks out of high school, and it is the night of my first performance with a professional dance company. Over the last three weeks, I have jumped all the required hurdles of the young performer preparing to finish training and begin their career-- school dance concerts, graduation, two senior recitals-- and tonight, to me, is The Big Test. I am the youngest and newest member of the PA Dance Vision Repertory Ensemble, and I am constantly reminding myself to Not Mess This Up.

It becomes the most beautiful night of my eighteen-year-old life; I could not have wished for a better start to my career.

The final piece of the evening is the company's signature piece, Returning. Standing offstage as I watch the very beginning of the piece, my heart melts inside my chest from the sheer beauty, beauty that can be read not only in the dancers movements, but in their faces as well: Harmony. Love. Unity.

One of my most vivid memories: I am standing onstage with the entire company in the final pose for Returning as the thunderous applause erupts, thinking, "I did it. And there is nowhere else I would rather be than here, on this stage, with this company."

I spoke with our artistic director after the concert, asking if she wanted me to continue dancing with them in the next season, and was answered "Of course!" Backstage, talking to the dancers and the members of the student companies, I had this feeling of "This is something I love all-encompassingly, I never want to go back." In my own eighteen-year-old mind, I was celebrating the official start of my "life"-- my dance career, with a dance company I adored.

Eight hours later, I loaded up my Saturn and left to spend the summer in New York City. Driving out Interstate 78 that Sunday morning, though exhausted and still wearing my nice clothes from the night before, I had a smile on my face. I had something to look forward to when I returned.